I feel like everyone's life's going pretty badly... 8( (Even partly my own, but I'm a survivor, so it doesn't matter.) *sigh* i just don't really know, well, anything? 8''D


But well, I had no intent to rant here, or actually, I did, and I'm going to, but not from sucky world, but my drawings which have gone pretty sucky.

I just can't finish anything. Or if I can it's so fuckin boring picture that I'm ashamed of myself. Really, don't I have ANY more imagination?! I've been practising anatomy and it's correctness too much I guess I've forgotten the most important thing in drawing. To have fun and create something from your soul. Am I really that badly closed my self, that I can't let even true drawings out of me? ...I'm afraid I am. Shitty citutation, because I've always drawn to "pay back" my being. Drawing has also sometimes my reason to live, and I still feel my self totally worthless if I can't draw... that's why I keep on trying, but I'm afraid that trying makes this just worse. i seriously need some inspiration back. Inspiration for drawing yes, but also for LIFE!

Augh, long rant, but well, I'm totally stuck with myself right now. Or at least with drawing... x__x